write a letter to yourself, five years into the future.

5 years from now i will be 24.

so 24 year old me, this is 19 year old me talking to… well, me. i think by that time you would be done with architecture school, well at least with your degree. what is it like, being 24? right now it seems like a distant time in the future, but to think about 5 years is not very long. but we both know that a lot of things can happen in a year.

the reason im writing you this letter is because i wanna be able to look back to my past and somewhat relive these moments. memories are precious, and im sure tumblr would still be here 5 years from now unless of course that 2012 shit really happens or possibly another prophesied apocalypse.

so, 19..

actually right now i would be 19 and a little over a month so i cant really talk about being 19 yet, but i will talk about the previous years, specifically my college years because blogger has my high school stories.

i moved to KL and enrolled in foundation of natural and built environment in taylors on 2010. it wasnt my decision but i just went through with it because i didnt know what i was gonna do and i had to do something. im used to doing things i have no interest for but over the years, i have gained quite a deep interest in the field. anyway moving on.

it wasnt as tough, the course. of course i had no drawing skills whatsoever, and i was terrible at making models. i still am, but im not as bad as i used to be. you should be way way better after years of this stuff right? gosh just hypothetically talking to you makes me excited for the future.

what else happened in 2010? i met aung. now the story is a bit complicated, well actually its not but i just cant say it here. if you are still with him then i guess it really is love :) ive been with him for a year now and things have been going great. of course at times we do fight, and we fight like crazy but i really love him. sometimes i torture myself by looking at his ex’s fan page but i cant help thinking how i can compete with someone like that. i know it shouldnt be a competition but sometimes society gets to me. yes yes, bad jillian. and also the fact that i may not be accepted by his family almost killed me. not that im already planning my wedding vows but somewhere down the line, that would mean a sure break up right? but its okay, i have hope.

oh not to mention the year i had been completely broke. i had no money to go out and enjoy life. im like super stressed out now because of money and am really hoping to get the loan. are you still coping with that? because if you are, it means i will go through this for another 5 years which is sad, but it also means that i survived.

5 years from now.. how would i look like? would i still be the same person? have my views changed? am i still with my current boyfriend? am i still struggling with money? am i still studying architecture? am i still in malaysia? am i still alive?

if time travel is possible, or parallel universes exists, i would love to hear from you. but if they dont, i guess i would have to find out myself.

nice talking to you, 24-year-old me.

sincerely, 19-year-old me.

9 months ago  /  3 notes